Current mood:

chipper

extrovert/ most akward kiss ever.
So I’m actually going to write a live journal about the events of my week as opposed to a rant about my various neuroses. So this week was a pretty eventful one for me. On Monday I had a job interview at Fresco juice on Denman. I actually felt very blah about the prospect of being hired there because it’s forty five minutes to an hour away from my house. Plus the prospect of working with food and drinks didn’t thrill me. I was an hour late for my job interview but I still got the job. But ah, there was a catch, that being that I don’t get paid for 20 plus hours of training. This of course is bothersome. But I have to say that the job does have it’s perks. Not only do I see a barrage of hot shirtless guys walking by the store, because it’s so close to the beach. But also I get to tons of hot shirtless (often gay) guys coming into the store. (Side note)This is the first summer I’ve ever been able to truly enjoy looking at attractive men. In the past I would enjoy looking at them but a much louder voice in my head would scream why can’t I look like that or worst why can’t I date/fu#K someone who looks like that. Now I just enjoy the hotness. The two questions still swirl in my head but they are greatly reduced.
I like the job so far. I get a sick pleasure out of watching the juicer in action. It’s amazing. The thing can blend 5 carrots at a time and an entire lemon, wow. This has been one of the first jobs that I don’t actually dread coming to or count the seconds till I’m off. My coworkers all seem really nice. However, one coworker seems just a little bit too nice. Which if I was interested would be cool. But I’m not so it’s a little awkward. So I’m new to the job and I make a few mistakes as is to be expected. But my coworker is always giving me way to much positive reinforcement. He’s “always like wow that’s great!” when I do something right. Which is great and very nice and supportive. But then he says “don’t worry you’ll get the hang of it” a billion times. I’m not just talking about when I make a little mistake it’s constant. He just randomly says it. His constant reassurance could be partly due to the fact that my face is soooo annoyingly emotive if I’m not smiling I have this downcast sad look on my face. This look generally means I’m in neutral mode but because it’s such a contrast from my constant smile people always misinterpret is as meaning I’m horribly depressed or dismayed. But not only is he constantly reassuring me, whenever he does reassure me he give a little squeeze on my shoulder (which I find very creepy.) However, he did say he has a boyfriend which made me very happy. He could just be a very nice person. But I think that if he breaks up with his boyfriend I’m going to make up a fake boyfriend just to be on the safe side. (I know all you honesty loving hippies are saying I could just tell him I’m not interested. But making up a fake boyfriend just seems so much easier and more fun.

Speaking of fake boyfriends I had another date with this guy I met named Jordon. We had 4 dates since I’ve met him. And it wasn’t until last night that we finally made out. (I know four dates till a first kiss that makes my life more pg then an Archie comic.) Anyways, it was the most awkward kiss ever. We were in this akward position on the couch. And I would keep staring at him for just a second and thinking “now I’m going to do it.” I’d lean in just slightly. But then I’d pull away b4 he noticed. I did this a couple of times till finally I made my move. But I was paralyzed in fear at the moment I got too his face. I just stared at his face for what seemed like forever and then I explained myself. I was like “So what umm exactly are we. Because I know your going away and soooo are we dating. He said we were so then we made out. But the couch was so small so it took literally a minute of maneuvering for us to figure out an acceptable position. But then because I had drank sooo much juice all day I burped in his mouth. But we kissed after that. So that’s me being extroverted. Who knows perhaps I will have more wacky stories to share in the near future.